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maybe

2011-07-02T01:39:00.001+08:00

maybe i dont like you, i just like the feeling of being wanted...

2011

2011-03-29T01:22:00.003+08:00

yup, my first post in 2011.

grandpa passed away. we all know that this is life no one can change it but it was still painful. sometimes i wonder am i devoid of feelings or i simply choose not to feel. through the wake i was composed, at least i tried to be. there are times where i feel like crying out loud but i dare not. i don't want to upset the adults.

when i got that call that day, i ran out of the office thinking of the fastest way to get back to my grandma house. i dialed a lot of numbers, i was shivering. shawn called back and told me to meet him at bishan where he will pick me and nigel. he drove really fast and i could hear him breathing very heavily in the car. jonas called back from USA, i know he was feeling much worse than all of us were coz he cant be here with us.

words can nv describe how i felt when i stepped in to house and saw my grandpa lying on the bed just like he was sleeping but we know he was gone. i wanted to cry but i held it all in when nigel broke down right beside me. shawn was all tense up. i hugged grandma real hard. when she saw us all cry she start crying again. we all cried.

5 days of wake. time files. we spent time together. we joked and laughed, had supper in the middle of the road while it was raining. i think that was grandpa's last gift to us. allowing us to spend time together.

grandpa had a blessed life, we all know. we all miss him dearly but we know he is in a better place with no tubes, no needles, no pain.

ah gong, i miss you.

Lazy me

2010-12-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

Alright... gotto admit that I got super lazy to blog ever since I started working.... Maybe work is just boring and nothing exciting was going in my life and I don't see the need to blog about my boring life, so I stop blogging for damn long....

Life have been alright I guess... apart from falling sick... and knowing that I will have to do tooth implant in the future which not only cost a BOMB but also pain... =( I pray that the baby tooth of mine will not fall off...

Christmas is coming! and I love Christmas... haha... I don't celebrate Christmas but I love it coz everyone seems to be nicer and it is all about love and giving... haha...

I will try to blog often la hor... haha TRY....

three years....

2010-10-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

It had been three years... since that surprise...

Happy birthday to myself....

一个人

2010-09-14T01:04:00.003+08:00

当你突然不见了之后，我学会了如何与寂寞共舞。。。

学会了如何面对孤独。。。

学会了凡事都自己来，自己面对。。。

学会了独立。。。

学会了勇敢。。。

也习惯了一个人。。。

但也因为这样我也把我的心锁了起来。。。　

好像没办法让任何人进入我的心了。。。

that something....

2010-09-06T01:25:00.003+08:00

I think I need to find that something that I will brave the storm and cross the sea for...

A friend of mine told me "You need to find something you can look forward to then you won't feel so sian."

True... but I need to find that something which I have totally no idea of... haha...

Life is a quest... and full of searching for that something

But will you ever find that something...

No body knows....

life....

2010-08-26T01:10:00.002+08:00

Life is like a box of chocolates

Just that you won't know when you will get a bitter one

how can u not love this guy

2010-08-24T23:15:00.003+08:00

he is cute, isn't he? ;)

dreams...

2010-08-13T01:18:00.004+08:00

I once heard people saying a life without dream is not worth living

true

and I have problems looking for a dream

I got to have a dream before I can start dreaming, right?

but how can I get one? buy? barter trade?

My tooth

2010-07-25T01:28:00.002+08:00

I got a gum infection due to a healthy tooth on my lower jaw... well, not exactly its fault coz I was born without its partner for it to bite my food with. So I injured my gum on the upper jaw thinking that it was an ulcer. And it got infected!! =( and even caused a mild fever. haiz

To get rid of the problem once and for all I will have to extract the tooth at the lower jaw. I hate extracting my tooth! so scary! I did it before and I never thought that I have to go through it again... haiz... but I figure out if I am going to spend the rest of my life alone I have to learn to be brave and face the music!

I AM BRAVE COZ I AM A FIGHTER.

maths of a working life

2010-07-17T21:51:00.002+08:00

8.5 hours at work

2 hours traveling to and fro work

1 hour dinner

8 hours of sleep

4.5 hours of personal time

That sums up 24 hours of a working person in Singapore and this make weekend damn precious.

when your heart is confused...

2010-07-10T01:45:00.004+08:00

when your heart is confuse.... you get weird emotions

when your heart is confuse.... it feels like you have misplaced it somewhere

when your heart is confused.... you will feel it beating at a unusual speed

when your heart is confused.... you know your brain have to take charge

when your heart is confused.... you know you got to tell yourself not to miss

when your heart is confused.... you feel like running away

when your heart is confused.... you feel like crying

when your heart is confused.... just close it up

when your heart is confused.... you know you cant show it

when your heart is confused........................................just hide

reality....

2010-07-05T01:28:00.002+08:00

reality is....

when you are out of school you don't get enjoy a lot of privilege....

reality is....

money can't buy happiness but without money it is hard to be happy too....

reality is....

you won't get the job that you like....

reality is....

even you having the job of your interest the environment can just kill that little burning passion of yours....

reality is....

simply so cruel....

Sweet Little Girl

2010-06-18T23:53:00.004+08:00

I cant help but smile when I saw this sweet little girl hugging a sleepy koala. =)

Toy Story 3 is coming REAL soon!

2010-06-12T03:04:00.006+08:00

How great is this! Oh my! Toy Story 3 is finally coming after so much anticipation! The first Toy Story was released in 1995, I was only only 8 years old then. haha. 4 years later Pixar released Toy Story 2 in 1999. And now this June in 2010! They are releasing Toy Story 3 and you can watch it in 3D! Whooooo! Well, I practically grew up with Toy Story! haha. I re-watched both Toy Story 1 and 2 to refresh my memory so that I will be ready for Toy Story 3. haha!

The trailer is very promising, now that Andy is going to college so what will happens to all his toys. Whooo! I honestly can't wait to find out. Also, in there are many new characters in Toy Story 3. All of them looks so cute and funny. haha. But my favorite for now will be Ken. Simply watching him in the trailer make me laugh. The way he did the introduction to Woody, Buzz and gang. That would be how I would image Ken would be, if he ever gonna come to life. He is vain and fancy yet trying to prove to other toys his masculine side. haha. His character is kinda of a irony to start from, he has a masculine appearance but he is a girl's toy. haha. My favorite scene in the trailer would be how he blew his temper and tell the rest of the toys that he isn't a girl's toy. haha!

Pixar never fails to surprise us! Love all Pixar movies!

Catch Toy Story 3 Movie starting from 17th June 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!

Sherk forever after!

2010-06-07T00:36:00.003+08:00

The favorite time of all schooling children is here.... the long awaited JUNE HOLIDAY! haha... it order to reward my playful tuition kid for showing improvement in his mid year exams... Btw his name is Ben Angelo.... I brought him to watch Sherk forever ever after last thursday! Well, I wanted to watch it too... hee...

After getting his popcorn and drink we went in early and waited for the movie to begin. Being a kid, he was busy eating the popcorn before the movie begin.

After the movie, it was still early so I brought him around to toy 'r' us and he transformed into IRONMAN. But a chubby one... haha... that boy keep sleeping and eating that why la!

And in line with Toy Story 3, he tried Buzz lighter too... haha! I cant wait for Toy story 3 to be out!

After all the fun, time to go home for dinner and my yoga class! Bringing a kid out is definitely not easy man... I had to keep an eye on him all the time and he get restless easily some more. I hope his results will continue to improve coz his mom is working so hard for him.

Sex and The City 2

2010-06-01T23:23:00.002+08:00

I caught this movie with wenie yesterday it was even better than the first one. But I love the first one as much as the second one! Samantha is forever funny! Love the friendship among the girls.

"We made a deal ages ago, men, babies doesn't matter. We are soul mates." my favorite line in the movie by Samantha! Sex and The City ROCKS! =)

"Sometimes you just need to get away with the girls" by Carrie.

growing up

2010-05-29T01:35:00.002+08:00

Can I say that I miss school? Not the studying part but the part whereby I am a student.

Being a student you get to enjoy alot of stuff.

Stuff like you can nua at home officially coz it is your holiday, you can get temp and part-time jobs for extra pocket money coz you know it will be over in a few days or weeks time, you will be forgiven in many ways simply becoz you are a student, you can just have fun first coz future and planning is still a distance away. How nice right!

But the undeniable fact is we all have to grow up and nothing is the world is certain. We got to adapt, change and fit it. Which is no joke, at least for me.

ALOHA

2010-05-15T02:28:00.003+08:00

The definition of ALOHA

"Akahai," meaning kindness, to be expressed with tenderness;

"Lokahi," meaning unity, to be expressed with harmony;

"Oluolu," meaning agreeable, to be expressed with pleasantness;

"Haahaa," meaning humility, to be expressed with modesty;

"Ahonui," meaning patience, to be expressed with perseverance.

These are traits of character that express the charm, warmth and sincerity of Hawaii's people. It was the working philosophy of Native Hawaiians and was presented as a gift to the people of Hawaii.

"Aloha" is more than a word of greeting or farewell or a salutation.

"Aloha" means mutual regard and affection and extends warmth in caring with no obligation in return.

"Aloha" is the essence of relationships in which each person is important to every other person for collective existence.

"Aloha" means to hear what is not said, to see what cannot be seen and to know the unknowable.

Source: http://www.to-hawaii.com/aloha.php

Hawaii, such a beautiful place! I really hope to visit it someday!

new chapter

2010-05-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

I didn't wanna write this down actually, rather I didn't have the courage to face the fact that I am entering into a new chapter of my life. Slowly but steadily I am facing it bravely.....

6 years of primary school

4 years of secondary school

3 years of polytechnic

3 years of university

16 years of education and here I am now entering into the working world.

but getting a job is not easy coz there is no perfect fit.

however, I will overcome it!

I love the zoo

2010-05-11T01:04:00.010+08:00

Over the weekend, thanks to hazzz we got to visit the zoooo for FREE!

After a super full breakfast at macs, we head off to the zoo in hazzz's shaggaur to meet chien at the enterance... haha!

We are going to the zoo zoo zoo! how about you you you!

and the adventure beginss.....

the boys got serious when they saw....

the white tigers! my favorite! sooo beautiful!

There were kangaroos too! oh.. i miss aussie!

Sleepy kids in prams... haha!

Pretty parrots!

Monkeyssss!

Animal performances!

White peacock which is trained to do moves according the drum beats at the performances!

So pretty!

Cute kids!!!

when you go to the zoo, u are expected to go a great amount of walking.

another of my favorite! the POLAR BEARSSS!

Also, there was a new born!

See, the cute little baby zebra!

The tallest animal, giraffe!

Grouchy looking lioness...

the retro signature that have been in the zoo since the first time I visited it.

Little pony with Micheal Jackson's hair style! haha!

Well, it rained so we hitched a ride on the tram and end our adventure to the zoo zoo zoo!

After the adventure was a evening spent in a super nice cafe with a nice cup of hot tea. loves!

when Liana turns 21

2010-05-03T01:48:00.009+08:00

On 25 April 1989, a girl named Liana Ho was born and on 24 April 2010 we celebrated her 21st birthday with all sort of funny and funky spectacles! And I am glad that I know her, thanks to her Bangkok trip.

Her pretty and yummy birthday cake!

Candies with 'Liana' on them for door gifts!

Doesn't she look like Enda Mode from The Incredibles? Btw, she decided to chop off her hair on the day of the party and gave everyone a shock. But she looks good in it!

There were funky spectacles and so was Liana's special someone! *winks*

Nerdy spectacles too.

The cranky teacher and the studied too much student!

Finally looking normal! haha!

Love u, babe!

The scrap I made for her!

Special little name book for the birthday girl! =)

twins

2010-05-02T01:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wish that I had a twin....

A twin who can understand me completely....

A twin who can stay up late at night to chat with me....

A twin who will be there when I cry my heart out at night....

A twin who will know how I feel and keep me company....

but... I don't think that twins work this way.... they can look alike, have the same birthday but their personality can be different...

Love Life

2010-04-26T02:17:00.001+08:00

能活着，是辛福的。

I fear....

2010-04-22T00:46:00.003+08:00

I fear crossroads....

I fear to make decisions....

I fear of what is coming next....

I fear history repeat itself....

I fear to fall again....

send me an angel

2010-04-19T00:30:00.003+08:00

It's me again

I need someone to be my friend.....

someone who won't run away

Maybe send me an Angel.....

the nicest angel you have.

- A line from Disney Lilo and Stitch

itchy hands

2010-04-18T01:49:00.003+08:00

sometimes I hate myself for my itchy hands

-.-

why did I click to view the page

and feel zzzz afterwards

urgh

disgusting people

2010-04-10T02:13:00.002+08:00

why cant you just bloody understand that quantity does not equate to quality?

why cant you just bloody spare a thought for others?

why cant you take on more responsibility for your own work?

why in the world be so concern about the grades when you are giving shitty work without reading the brief and knowing the marks allocation?

why in the world do you people even exist?!

The WORLD is a place which is sad enough and it doesn't need people like you to make it even worse!

新欢&旧爱

2010-04-08T23:59:00.007+08:00

This is my 旧爱! Honey biscuit balls! Let me tell you, I ate this since young and the package never change at all! hee!

Recently I found a 新欢! Thanks to Shing Yeen! haha!

Percy pig and pals Soft gums from Marks & Spencer!

The best thing is that there is no artificial colours or flavourings.

And every different character have a different flavour.

收留我

2010-04-07T02:47:00.003+08:00

有人要收留我吗?

PS: S.H.E 这张专辑, SHERO, 不错. 不仿听听. 我想去她们的演唱会leh! =(

Little stuffs that make me smile....

2010-04-05T01:35:00.002+08:00

Isn't this cute! haha! Now I have a cute little lion stuck at the back of my hp! ROAR!

These are the little things that make me smile without fail.

Simple pleasures

2010-03-30T00:38:00.002+08:00

drop by City Hall after a paper

sat by the window of Macdonald's with a laptop

munching MacWing and drinking ice milo

while people watching

♥

screw up!

2010-03-25T01:40:00.004+08:00

Why do I suddenly feel that my life is abit screw up and not in sync?

Can someone please enlighten me?

Is it the weather?

Is it school work?

I think I need some ice cream

Sleeping Disorder!

2010-03-23T01:17:00.002+08:00

Sian! Why cant I sleep at night? and Why cant I wake up in the morning? Why do I always feel so sleepy?

I suppose this is sleeping disorder.........

The adventure!

2010-03-22T00:45:00.008+08:00

Every March holiday there will be a Disney on Ice show with different themes! I will always get the cheapest tickets and go catch it! (I have been doing this for 5 years already) haha! This is my yearly dose of Disney afterall I cannot afford to visit Disneyland every year. PLUS, the theme this year is A Disneyland Adventure! WOOTS! =)

Before the show starts, you can see kids running around everywhere.

My Disney on Ice buddy, Sylvia! This year we got couple seats somemore. haha.

The show starts off with most of the characters singing and dancing!

and some cruising around in the jungle~

and going on the Rocky Train ride!

Not forgetting a grand entrance by beautiful princess!

And of course! MY FAVORITE was present too! singing and dancing away!

How can you not have a evil witch....

.....with superheros to put up a fight and save the day!

After the show ended I went to have a peak at the backstage where they kept all the props and stuff. hee! I had a splendid weekend!

I ♥ Disney!

what will happen to your heart?

2010-03-10T02:47:00.001+08:00

When you grow older, your heart dies....

-A line from a movie directed

by John Wilden Hughes, Jr.

Oscar Awards

2010-03-09T01:16:00.002+08:00

Thank you, guys. When I was... I was nine and I asked my dad, "Can I have your movie camera? That old, wind-up 8 millimeter camera that was in your drawer?" And he goes, "Sure, take it." And I took it and I started making movies with it and I started being as creative as I could, and never once in my life did my parents ever say, "What you're doing is a waste of time." Never. And I grew up, I had teachers, I had colleagues, I had people that I worked with all through my life who always told me what you're doing is not a waste of time. So that was normal to me that it was OK to do that. I know there are kids out there that don't have that support system so if you're out there and you're listening, listen to me: If you want to be creative, get out there and do it. It's not a waste of time. Do it. OK? Thank you. Thank you.

- Michael Giacchino
Movie: UP
Oscar Winner of Music (Original Score)

I would love to be like him and believe that it is not a waste of time.

Patrick Hoodie!

2010-03-06T01:50:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHH!!!! Patrick hoodie!!!! 好可爱啊！I want!! haha... when u zip the hoodie up u will look like Patrick! Haha! I saw someone wear this at Cityhall that day and now I am seeing it on TV... haha! I bet my brother would love this man!

Transformers look alike!

2010-03-04T01:48:00.003+08:00

I miss those handsome and transformers look alike trucks in Australia. Trucks in Singapore are so unmanly and not handsome lo!

My poor foot

2010-03-03T02:04:00.005+08:00

Haiz! My poor foot is more serious than I thought it was. All along I thought it was just foot rot which I got 2 years ago on V'day. Wonder how I remembered so clearly? Coz I remembered how my foot itched when I was having dinner with a bunch of friends. haha!

Well, the little red spots keep spreading around my right foot causing the skin to dry and peel then bleed. =( But recently it got damn bad. The wound bleed so badly while I was walking that there were blood stain on my new shoe. New shoes lo! but I managed to wash it away la. If not, so gross lo!

So looking at its seriousness I took the effort and time to pay NUS Health Care Center a visit and I got a nice doctor. =) He said that it could be eczema. After all I do have a very sensitive background. I was hit by allergy a few times. The most serious one landed me in hospital.

Now I have to diligently apply the medication. Also, I have to wear slippers at home in order not to dirty the floor with all my medication. Hai yo! Please heal quickly! It is just like the incident that took place 2 years ago. This condition occurred around that time too. I want to get rid of this condition together with that incident. =)

Ugly is the new CUTE

2010-03-02T01:27:00.002+08:00

I guess the person who said that Cute is ugly but adorable and Adorable is ugly but cute is right to a certain extent. haha! Look at that 2 gong gong ugly dolls! so gong! haha! so cute! goodness!

我愛他

2010-03-01T01:07:00.004+08:00

如果还有遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

Randomness #2438126

2010-02-25T23:08:00.004+08:00

My brother looking bu shuang.

He posed for this photo

BOTAK HEAD! haha!

He wasn't in the mood to take photo.

Baby cousin!

Baby cousin is extremely happy. haha.

V'day kiss for you! *muacks*

Mr Nissan Silvia

Mr BMW Isetta

Slibings

2010-02-23T01:45:00.003+08:00

did you ever wonder why your sister or brother is this particular person? Although I never wondered why but now I know why. =)

Before my second brother enlist into army, I was worried about his stubbornness. He is that kind of person who would insist on doing things that he think is right. Because of this stubbornness of his, our family had many quarrels and talks. Like he would insist on going to gym or going for his soccer when his 0 levels is nearing. No doubt it is a good way of relaxing but many times he wasn't getting enough sleep. There are also times when he insisted to go for his runs despite the fact that he just recovered from a flu. I am worried that he might be the same when he is in army. Insisting on doing something when his body can't take it. And that happened.

Over the weekend, he fell sick. He went to the doctor and got MC. But he was worried was about missing his live range practice on Monday. So when he was asked to rest at home on Monday he expressed his concern. Then his sergeant called him on Sunday night to ask him to book in on Monday morning so that he can attend the live range practice. Even with a MC he insist on completing what he was supposed to as he is afraid that he won't be able to catch up.

While I was advising him to take thing easy I realized how alike we are. haha. I remembered during spring cleaning I found a whole stack on MCs in my drawer. Those were from my poly days. I never submit any of those to apply for leave of absence and attended all the class with the fear of not being able to catch up too. There was once when I went through a full day class and project meeting with my untreated sprained ankle and I ended up with a swollen foot.

haha. me and my brother both have the same fear of not being able to catch up and thus we don't want to miss anything. Same kind of mindset and stubbornness. Now I know why we are brother and sister and I believe that this kinship is a gift. =)

the oldie that never die

2010-02-21T04:28:00.001+08:00

This is one song that I believe will live forever. All time classic!

My new idol

2010-02-19T00:49:00.005+08:00

Extremely cute little boy!!! His name is 小小彬. What is amazing about him is that he is barely 5 years old and he can act. All his 童言童语 is extremely cute!! oh dear!!

Can I order a son like him? haha!

How was he like?

2010-02-18T02:07:00.005+08:00

How was he like?

He was a very warm person.

He was sensitive to my feelings.

He was someone who takes care of me.

He was someone who was abit naggy.

He was someone who have the qualities of a uncle.

He would know it when I was upset and unhappy.

He would buy me ice cream after listening to me whine about wanting to have ice cream.

He baked cakes and some other goodies for me.

He would shelter me in rain while he walked in the rain.

He would help me print notes.

He would accompany me to revise for exams.

He taught me how to use mind-map for my revision.

He would help me carry all my heavy textbooks.

How is he like now?

He is a total stranger now.

sad, isn't it?

someone so close and dear to you can become a total stranger when feelings changes.

but it will come to a point when you will rather feel totally neutral about it.

afterall having feelings for someone be it positive or negative actually takes effort too.

Hair cut. again

2010-02-09T16:44:00.004+08:00

YES! I went to chop my hair off again.... I showed my stylist the picture of what I want on the right and the outcome is on the left... well, don't look alike right... but it is cut already... -.- and it looks neat now coz my stylist style nicely for me... hope it will look okie after I wash man... post-haircut dissonance again...

But then after reading http://colormekatie.blogspot.com/2009/01/wednesday_21.html maybe I have been damn silly all these while over my hair. haha. like someone told me if u look good u will look good in any hairstyle. Oh well, I guess I am not the look good kinda of person. haha.

NS time!

2010-02-06T15:33:00.004+08:00

Yup, my dear brother is a recruit now at Tekong. I woke up extremely early this morning to send him all the way to Tekong which is the BMTC (Basic Military Training Camp... I think) And we had a tour there. The environment there is pretty nice actually the bunk are airy and clean and big. But that is the "showroom" we visited so I am not sure about the actual bunk. haha.

To my surprise there were female enlists who signed on as regular and they will undergo the same kind of training as the guys! I got to talk to one of them on boat. She is 22 year old this year. She was all well prepared mentally and physically. Since they are regulars this means that they will be trained to be officers. I must give it to them. They must have been damn courageous to do it. I don't think I am up to this kind of decision or training. I also give it to their parents man. How many parents out there don't bear to send their sons off to NS but there they are sending their daughters.

Definitely an eye opener for me, afterall Tekong is not a place where you enter and leave as and when you like to. haha. Good luck ah, ah hao! See you this coming Friday BOTAK! hoho! (oh ya, my brother escape the confinement as it is Chinese New Year! He get to book out this coming Friday!)

Mcfancy

2010-02-05T00:13:00.008+08:00

oh my goodness! Macdonald have just recently launched a up market version named Mcfancy. How would you bear to eat such pretty food! I seriously wonder how much would a meal cost there. haha! I wouldn't be surprise if it like damn expensive afterall they have brands all over them.

"First is McFancy, an upmarket temporary McDonald’s store that launches at Fashion Weeks around the globe — London, New York, Paris, Milan, Sydney, Hong Kong. McFancy is part art installation, gathering spot and, of course, a restaurant that offers a traditional McDonald’s menu but packaged in a way that makes a playful yet stylish nod to the lifestyle of the highly desirable, influential consumers that attend Fashion Weeks." - The Cool Hunter, 9 Jan 2010

"Waiters in tuxedos, silver service, private dining areas, and packaging co-created with the fashion brands that present at Fashion Week — Burberry burgers, Chanel fries on black packaging, Paul Smith Sundaes...A bit of fun among the serious business of fashion. A bite of comfort food among all the elaborate cocktail fare." - The Cool Hunter, 9 Jan 2010

Dolce & Gabbana Jalou

2010-02-03T01:24:00.006+08:00

I went to town today and saw this phone in the Singtel shop. It is such a beauty! oh man! of coz the specifications wouldn't be that wonderful but the design is timeless. It will just like be whipping out a cosmetic mirror from your handbag when it is a phone. I wouldn't comment on the functionality of the phone as I have not use it at all but I have fall for the design. haha! =)

Alma

2010-01-23T00:09:00.003+08:00

Alma from Rodrigo Blaas on Vimeo.

Great animation.

No dialog yet told the story.

Look cute but it is abit scary.

Love it!

My latest fav. song

2010-01-22T02:10:00.003+08:00

This song is very addictive! haha!

latest obsession

2010-01-19T02:43:00.004+08:00

Proudly present my latest obsession! haha! I finished watching like 12 epi in 3 days! (good way to relief the anxiety and stress resulting from module bidding and a stupid mistake I made but it is all settled)

I realised Taiwan dramas nowadays are so much more shorter which is good! Just like how I always liked Japanese drama! haha! This drama may look lame but personally I feel it is pretty nice! haha! Tonight I may just dream about 鞑浪鞑浪鞑浪... hahaha...

the song for the show is nice too... haha... ah obsession~~

shit do happen

2010-01-16T02:28:00.003+08:00

yup... shit do happen... sometimes it just happen so that u made a stupid mistake and u do whatever u can to rectify it... but still things may not go your way.... -.-

wah raooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! all these stuff are getting on my nerves!!!

Happy 2010!

2010-01-02T10:21:00.002+08:00

Hello! haha! for some reasons (which i dont know) I have become so lazy to blog even when there are MAJOR happening around me. Maybe I am too into these happenings that I have no time to write down my feelings.

Major events that happened!

I pass my driving test on 25 nov 2009! hahah! LIKE FINALLY LO! and I have been driving around in my dad's old car. AND I have problems parking the car. -.-" which is very annoying!

I went to Australia for 23 day and had a hell lots of FUNNNNN. But when it was time to leave.... cant help it but sadness sink in. My feelings at the airport were (somehow I managed to pen it down while cheng was sleeping away at the boarding area. haha) .... "Just like this. I ended my 23 days visit to Australia. It started with 不安 and ended with 不舍得。Maybe this is because in past we always travel together and return home together but this time there is someone being left behind. And we all know the next time we meet would be one and half year later." I will try to blog about the trip with pictures. no promise coz it is like freaking 23 days. haha!

I got my results it was okie rather I am very happy with it coz I got a B and 2 B+ and I manage to pull my cap up! =) Hope the coming and my last sem I can maintain my grades.

Oh ya! I won a pair of tickets to Hong Kong and I gave it to my parents so they are flying like in the wee hours later on. haha! hope they wont quarrel during the trip man.....

Guess that is about all~ shall go and grab some breakfast!

What do I do -Jisun

2009-11-10T13:25:00.002+08:00

so sad yet beautiful~

Prom Night

2009-11-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

As I am working in a tuition center I get to meet a whole of kids who are way younger than me! And the Secondary four kids are having their prom.... search for the right dress, shoes and all... haha... remind me of my prom. well, it wasnt a great one but at least I have been to one... haha... not to mention looking at them make me feel old....

yup I am PLUS ONE alreadyyyyyyyyy!!!! so old, they say after u hit 20 time will just fly byyyyyy... haiz!

Places & Memories

2009-10-22T01:24:00.003+08:00

Have you tried re-visiting a place where significant events took place there? A place where huge emotions uproar took place?

I chance by such a place today. The exact emotions I experienced that time swam back to me suddenly. It was scary. After so long yet the emotions were so real.

It was as if those emotions were strangling me. I didn't know places and memories can have such strong linkages. But all I did was to quicken my steps and escaped. Such a coward.

方大同 - 紅豆

2009-10-21T02:28:00.002+08:00

he gave a total new feel to the song. Oldies, you never get tired of them. =)

I heart going to the cinema

2009-10-19T00:48:00.005+08:00

It have been a long time since I step into a cinema! Thanks to all the reports and crazy stuff in school. But last week alone I caught two movies and I am extremely happy about it! HAHA! I caught Cloudy with a chance of Meatball on Wednesday with Sylvia. Funny movie! I had a great time laughing. Simple yet there are meaning embedded throughout. After all movies are created by adults and there are some message that these movies maker would like to convey.

For Cloudy, I guess the message was target at both parents and kids. Parents shouldn't be afraid to say that they love their kids and kids should love themselves for who they are. =)

There was only the 3D version so me and Sylvia watched it anyway. Well, I personally prefer the normal kind of movie. 3D doesn't have much effect for Cloudy's and the 3D spectacles are quite blur. And my ears got kinda of tired coz the spectacles are rather heavy. Lastly it is more expensive when movies tickets are already quite pricey to start from!

So these are the 3D specs... haha! look funny right.

The other movie that I caught was (500) days of summer. It is totally my kind of movie. If you like Juno I think you might love this too! Love the way they edited the film and how small details were taken care of. Compare and contrast but not confusing. There was humor injected at the right place. It was really nice la! haha!

I realised watching movie in the cinema is a good way to escape from the outside. With that ticket you hold you enter into a dark room with comfy seat and there it is just you and the movie. Just you enjoying the movie. For like short few hours. I guess it might be a prefect hideout. =)

not ready to make nice

2009-10-05T13:49:00.004+08:00

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back downI'm still mad as hell and I don't have time
To go round and round and round

It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell, can't bring myself
To do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kinda like it

organiser

2009-09-30T03:45:00.001+08:00

When I flipped open my organiser! I feel damn scared coz there are tons of things lining up for me to do..... SO MANY MANY!!!

I am damn scare!

bad air

2009-09-27T02:35:00.002+08:00

what is happening to the air quality.... -.- I didnt know I am that sensitive to the changes in the quality of the air. Now I even have to wear a mask at home.... haiz... and I feel horrible.... =(

if the air continue to be this bad, I may fall sick anytime....

埋怨

2009-09-25T23:21:00.004+08:00

埋怨带来的也只有痛苦和烦恼。何必让自己这么辛苦呢？

人生也不过那几十年，晃一晃就过去了。

把心放开。看开点。让自己开心点。

没有什么比开心更重要的了。

Just one click

2009-09-22T01:41:00.003+08:00

With just one click, I am all ready to set off to a faraway land.

With just one click, guilty dawn in.

With just one click, I know I was living in the moment grabbing the opportunity.

With just one click, I got to learn to let things go.

With just one click, I pray that things will get better.

With just one click, I hope to be happier.

With just one click, I hope my family will be happier.

With just one click, I hope my dad will find a job soon. (it doesn't matter if it is lowly paid as long as he is comfortable wit it)

With just one click, I want to do well in school.

One click encompass so many hopes, so many lessons, so many emotions.

Lost and Found

2009-09-21T02:24:00.002+08:00

We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Somtimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite oursleves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier. Sometimes we find our own way out. But regardless, always, we are found.

A place called here

- Cecelia Ahern

Please~~

2009-09-19T01:26:00.002+08:00

Please let my dad get the job..... PLEASE?

Things are kinda of rough here. haiz.

Late nights

2009-09-09T03:59:00.002+08:00

For some weird reasons... I love late nights... Stay up late at night is so quiet and peacefully... Knowing that everything have stopped for the day, I can finally settle down to do something I want without distractions... =)

But I know this is very unhealthy.... as a person need 8 hr of sleep everyday and our liver need to rest between 11pm -2am.

Time to kick this bad habit away. hee

Song of the week - 掉了

2009-09-07T02:22:00.006+08:00

Sorry for not updating.... something happened and I was very demoralised... So I wanted to MIA for sometime.

Anyway! I have a damn nice song to intro!!!

This song is by A-mei rather 阿密特 A MIT which is her tribe name. She wanted to brand her music under a different genre altogether. Something different from the usual A-mei type of songs. In this album A-mei showed another side of her which the more 凶悍 side of her. There is abit more the rock and darkness. This can be seen from the album cover already! haha.

掉了 this song is really very nice. The lyric simply uses 掉了to describe how things are gone and will never be found again. 掉了 this 2 word sound so easy and simple but how many people would understand that 掉了就是没了。Listen to it! You may have a different interpretation from mine. Plus the MV is really neatly shot as well. A-mei with that short red hair and high heels, 超有性格的！=)

Bandage

2009-09-07T02:15:00.001+08:00

He used to think a lot about Marguerite. Not so much now. She was like a wound beneath an old bandage, and he had grown more used to the bandage

the five people you meet in heaven

Mitch Albom

actually i am damn tired

2009-08-26T01:21:00.003+08:00

I am not sure if I made the right decision but I feel really tired even though I am only taking 3 modules. It is week 2 only and I am feeling all drained out.

Is it becoz of work?

Pls stop add stuff to my already full basket. I cant breathe.

Why is living so tough? Can I choose to live more easily?

I feel so ARGH!

2009-08-19T01:06:00.003+08:00

Oh man! What is happening!

WHY do I feel so ARGH?

Suddenly, I dont feel like going to school!

Suddenly, I dont know what I want! (maybe I didnt know what I want to start from)

Why do I feel so damn lostttttt????

What the hell is happening to me?

Can someone enlighten me please?

Songs of the week!

2009-08-15T14:18:00.003+08:00

I know I am late! haha. It is Saturday already! but I was tired last night la... haha... My top 3 of the week are.....

1）刘若英 - 很爱很爱你
2）梁静茹 - 会吸呼的痛
3）杨丞琳 - 左边

Since they are all chinese songs I shall recommend them in chinese! hee!

三首都是还蛮伤心得歌。不难发现三首歌的共同点是在述说得不到的爱情，但诠释的方都不一样。毕竟三位歌手的所谓的年代也不一样。刘若英应该是最质深的，然后就是梁静茹最后就是杨丞琳。三首歌的味道我都很喜欢！但我要推荐的是第一和第二首歌。奶茶的很爱很爱你是我小弟的最爱。哈哈！这首歌是有点老但还是非常好听。它述说的就因为你很爱一个人才舍得让他飞向对他更好更幸福的地方。歌词简单，曲也是朗朗上口。奶茶的歌声更加是不用说的好听啦！听听看吧说不定你也会爱上它。

第二首歌就是梁静茹的会吸呼的痛。这首歌是失恋的人必听必哭得很惨的歌。MV更是拍的很哀伤。歌词描述一个没有了解身边的另一半也会累，也会有需要人依赖和保护的时候的女生。不管是男生还是女生在爱情都会有软弱的时候，会要人呵护的时候。但很多人都会忽略了这一点。朋友也一样吧。或许人都需要朋友和家人的关心，也需要他们为自己加油。所以不要忽略身边爱人，朋友或家人。不然说不定有一天你回头看时，你的朋友，爱人或家人以经不在了。MV拍的很好不妨看一看，听一听。

End of first week of school!

2009-08-15T14:07:00.002+08:00

The first week of school have come to a end. I must say that my engine havent quite get started at all. Maybe summer holidays was way too long. The campus seem abit unfamiliar plus I am not sure which shuttle bus to take to got the central library. Well, you should know I tend to forget numbers very easily. haha.

3 days week sound very managable but why do I feel so tiredddddd! hmmm, maybe it will take some time for my engine to get started all over again. hoho!

My dream Stitch room!

2009-08-10T00:58:00.004+08:00

I hope to have a room like that! but I still want my room to be in pink in colour... haha... Stitch all over!!! NICE! I like!

Had a great Friday!

2009-08-08T00:36:00.003+08:00

I am dead tired but happy! haha coz after falling sick and cooped up at home all the time I got meet my beloved Liana for lunch and abit of shopping. Not to mention a good time laughing. haha... BFF ya! *wink*

After she left for work, I went shopping around alone til it was time to meet Sugar, hazzz and yango. Love shopping alone sometimes. Maybe as you grow u learn to enjoy spending time with urself.

Then I went off to PS to meet HAZZZZ, Yango and Sugar. HAHA! Miss them! Yango is now Mr Chan! haha teach cute little Pri 1 and 2 kids... hahaha... We caught Hangover, nice and kinda of sick movie. haha... but it have been awhile since I laugh so hard in the cinema! need some laugh? go catch it man.... Btw it is the hazz and yango kind of show! hahaha...

School is starting next week which means I cant play around as much anymore. BUT I know I will be able to meet up with the darlings I met up today! haha...

AND SUGAR! I love what you bot for me from aussie! The kola bear is cutest kind man! All those I have at home are not as cute as the one u gave me and the mini leather book.... so cool! I wouldnt bear to use it man! haha! LOVE U! I really gald that I have u as my sugar!

Friday is ning's song day!

2009-08-08T00:07:00.005+08:00

I have decided! In order to ensure that I will not neglect my blog I will try to recommend some of the songs that I am listening to! Be it new or old songs (sometimes old songs can be such a darling too, u know) haha... and on the side of my blog I have added a section call "ningalingaling's top 3 songs of the week" which will be the top 3 song that I have been listening to on my ipod. Maybe you would like take sometime and listen to them. U might just like them too!

Today I shall introduce the 3rd song on my list this week which Lady Gaga's Eh Eh [Nothing else I can say]. I must say it is quite addictive. It starts off with "cherry-cherry boom-boom" haha... and my baby brother loves to sing that into my ear when he first listened to the song. Well, comparing it to Just Dance or Poker Face this song sound "not-Lady Gaga". Not some clubbing music but a sweet little love song. It is like a different side of Lady Gaga. Listen to it! You might just like it too!

I tried to find the song with the mv on youtube but I guess her songs are pretty much copyrighted. Thus, the song quality is more important! Dont laught at the editing ya... hahaha... though it is quite funny... Listen to the song! =)

arghhhhh

2009-08-06T12:33:00.003+08:00

Hai yer! I thought bidding was so smoothly and happily didnt care about it. But last night I got a call from Shing yeen saying that every student have to take a min of 4 mod per sem but I am only taking 3 this sem. Then how man!

Have to call and ask, then email here email there. So ma fan. Why cant we take lesser huh? as long as we won't delay our graduation then why not? nvmmmmmmm I emailed the Assistant Dean already~ shall wait and see......

Update! whooooipppppp!!! my request is being approve by the super nice dean! wheeeeee!!! HAPPY AM I!

Farewell BBQ!! 3 July 2009

2009-08-03T15:45:00.003+08:00

BELATED!!!

Well, another belated post! hahaha.... pardon me ya... I was sick and busy la.... This was the farewell bbq for Shian and Yeo! Jackey, Kenny, Cheng and me went there the night before the bbq to go to Shinoko Fish market to shop for seafood~ It was an eye opener! coz alot of fishes! haha...

The bbq have no fish ball, no hot dogs or crabmeat, coz yeo say it was gg to be high class bbq. haha! so we had unagi, saba fish and prawns etc all the UP THERE seafood! haha! a

After the super filling bbq was photo taking! We all took indivdual shots with Yeo and Shian!

Finally 全家幅 ! This photo doesnt come easy lo... coz the guys ar were damn candid thru out! hahaha!

Miss times like these man! BBQ was a success! and we had tons of fun!

After that bbq, we did had a KTV gathering session was again damn funny!

But when all the fun part are over it was the sending off part.... =( We sent Yeo and Shian off to Aussie at Changi Airport. Well, we will miss them of coz but wish them all the best tooooooooo.... I am gg to save money so I can go visit them someday! wheeee! I want a kola bear! hahaha!

Lorraine's wedding! =) 27 June 2009

2009-08-03T15:24:00.005+08:00

BELATED!!!

This is really belated! hahaha... coz only now that I have time to edit the photos and blog about it! haha... On 27 June 2009, my dear friend Lorraine got married! After Joyce's wedding this is the second wedding that my name was on the invite! hahaha... wedding can be quite nice to attend sometimes. (although I have been on shoot with curly for quite a few of wedding)

Some photos from the wedding!

I made new friends and had a great time laughing and joking with Shirely and her sister! haha... they look a like and talk alike and even laugh at the same thing! haha.. and congrats! Mrs Foo! haha! Lorraine must be enjoying her new wed life now!

This is what I got for the wedding couple! Scrapping!

Hope you guys can hang it in your room ya! hee!

Stupid prawn mee!

2009-08-03T14:33:00.003+08:00

Damn it la! I was still very happy after recovering from that nasty fever but who knows a plate of innocent looking fried prawn mee almost killed me!

Haizzzzz..... I got food posioning from eating that plate of prawn mee lo... why am I so sure coz cheng ate the same stuff from that store as well and we both got food posioning the next day! Thus, we are positive that it is the prawn mee!

Thanks to that I cant enjoy my last week of holiday, had to get a jab and I cant go to work! haizzzz... Plus the pain was unbearable with vomitting and runs to the toilet as well... damn sad... For a moment I thought I will die from the pain man...

I have yet to satisfy my craving leh.... I want to eat cheesecake de lo... and I want to shopping and eat ice cream also lo.... why liddat!

=(

I love Harry Potter to bits!

2009-07-30T01:21:00.008+08:00

I finally caught Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince!!!! I was so excited la! I know alot of ppl will say "Nice meh?" Well, not doubt that it is not anything the Dark Knight or anything.... Not like a 2 thumbs up movie but I love it anyway!

Dont be so strict on the poor movie makers la~ from a few hundreds pages novel into a 150mins with special effects and all it is really no joke man!

I went to the movie with my baby brother! haha... totally love his company coz we are both potter's fans so we were like discussing the movie. hahaha!

But the movie is going to end soon! Last movie will be out next year I suppose... =( no more Potter... but I super looking forward to how the last movie will be like... hee!

TOTALLY HEARTS HARRY POTTER!

ps: I got all the modules I wanted! Wheee... end of bidding! how nice! I LIKE!

Friends are gone and I fell sick!

2009-07-26T02:03:00.002+08:00

haha... I MIA again...

A little update here... tml if i have the time den I shall post up some photos of the very happening month... due to all the sending off of my friends.... I believed they are still having very happening life in aussie.... stuff like trying to get use to the envt and stuff... BUT over here in singapore... it is damn quiet now.... haizzzzzz.... YEO! KAI SHIAN! CONNIE! I MISS YOU ALL LA!!!!

Plus i fell damn sick... got fever for like 4 days straight... and it refuse to go away... but i am okie now.... was damn scared tht it was H1N1... haha... i was telling cheng! so not worth it if i get H1N1 in Singapore! I should have go to USA then! But the difference is that... my mom get to take care of me but if I was to be in USA and get it.... SHIT man... who cook for me! haha....

Okie! i still need to work tml... time to get some sleep and bidding starts on monday.... hopes it goes well man! hahaha....

Been Busy and Lazy

2009-06-26T01:52:00.004+08:00

I have been busy and not to mention lazy. I had one maddness week holding 3 jobs. damn tiring although it sounds really okie and perfectly manageable I cant take it. So what do you do when u cant take it? QUIT. Of coz i didnt quit all of them, just one of them. And it made my life a whole lot better!

On top of that as my friends are leaving for overseas studies soon, we are all trying to make the best of the time left. I have been having tons of gathering. haha... dinner, movie, shopping and mamboooooo~~~ whooo... but that night the songs wasnt very splendid and i only had 2 drinks BUT it is the company that made the difference!

And on top top of that! My Uncle with his family is here from states so there are also tons of family gathering! haha... I heart my only female cousin~ Her name is Zoe and since we are the only 2 girls in the family we kinda of stick together even though we are like... 16 years old apart! hahaha.

She painted me a top with the words "Zoe love me" on it. Well, might have to take some time to figure it as she did it very artistically. Haha!

AND I FINALLY CHANGE PHONE! coz my crazy U700 did a crazy stunt... like all of u had heard abt it, it gave me a mirror image. Well, picture paints a thousand word...

Amazing right! After that, it died on me not even allow me to trade in lo. =.=

Introducing my new phone! E63, I totally heart it! Damn value for money I paid less than $100 for it and it got every thing I need! haha!!!!! HAPPY!!! =)

Fairmont hotel stay!!!

2009-06-10T22:56:00.006+08:00

WHoooooo~ yeo had a free hotel stay at Fairmont hotel! 5 star hotel I think... should be la... it was at city area plus look at the hotel!! So big lo the bathroom! and got bathtub

Plus the scenery rocks too... although the room wasnt very high up but the view was splendid....

The following are all photo of us with the night scenery as the backdrop coz there is even a small balcony! haha! many of them!

Me!!!

Jackey's framing skill is not bad but the only problem is he took too long to frame the photo. So cheng and my smile look super stiff... -.-"

They kinda of cover the whole scenery... oh well... haha!

Kenny is very very very happy! *sparking teeth*

The room! accord to them... they are the boy band... haha

Boy band with Kai Shian! Yeo looks like he wanna to bite of Kenny's head but Kenny cant be bothered. hahhahhahahahhahha

3 red faces

and this is what alcohol do to people

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TADA!

haha! The stay was good la~ had good time chatting, we talked about everything from family to friends, relationship and the future... trying to squeeze into two beds.... fighting over animals (insider joke)....

Soon Kai Shian and Yeo will be flying to Aus le.... I think it will be very difficult for us to have time like this... haiz...

Scrapping is love!

2009-05-30T00:38:00.007+08:00

Presenting all my scrapping love so far!

Before going into that, I admit that I spent a total of $310.11 on scrapping. ( I know it is alot of money) $80 on 2 lessons (which is really splendid) the rest I spent on materials (coz there it is the National Scrapbooking Month @ Made With Love so I made use of the promotion and brought alot one shot, of coz I search for cheaper alternatives too)

My pinky album with my photo on it! I paid $34.94 for it (usual price $49.95) hee... I want to get the one with embossed pattern on the front but it costed $7 more after discount. So i decide this was good enough and I love it! =)

My first layout from my first lesson! Before this there was a basic layout which I have yet to put photo and beautify it futher.

Dedicated to all my friends who were very sporting and wore those mad hats on my 21st birthday party.

This the basic layout from my second lesson. Of coz I beautify it... added flowers, buttons and all... =)

Dedicated to Sylvia! My 14 year besties and still counting!

This the layout from my second class. I have yet to include the journal coz I am still thinking of how to do it to make it nice and not spoil it.

Dedicate to my beloved family! That was the first time we ever saw snow!

Finally! The layout I did all by myself at my scrapping mate's house!

Dedicated to the dessert of Dubai! hahaha... and myself for that nice pose!

All in all scrapping is love! I will be doing more! Watch out for them! =)

xoxo

你过的好吗？

2009-05-28T01:48:00.008+08:00

你过的好吗？辛福吗？建康吗？

你要加油哦!

希望那一天再见到你的时候我能笑着和你打招呼。

ways to forget ur unhappiness #2

2009-05-28T01:36:00.003+08:00

Pluck in the headphones of my beloved ipod and blast it with Jason Mraz's music!

Coz he rocks! His music rocks!

Updates~

2009-05-28T01:23:00.002+08:00

Well, I am really lazy to update... partly coz I am stuck in singapore la... once I planned to fill this space up with tons of photo from america. Maybe like a sweet looking girl who was at the theme park or cute angmo guy at the bus stop... But now... there is nth much for me to blog abt...

I cant say that staying in Singapore is completely bad but maybe just not as good. (like OF COZ MAN!!) My xiong diS have been keeping my company. haha.. got me out to play badminton, watch movies, have dinners, have suppers (mac fries rocks). And I took up scrapbooking! I went for 2 lessons and I TOTALLY LOVE IT! I love art and crafts and I finally found a way to store all my photos in a nice place. Not all of the photos of coz but nice and memorable ones! =) The best part is a found a scrapping friend from the scrapbooking lesson. haha... spent the whole day at her place and sort of completed a page all on my own! haha *proud*

Tml I will be heading down to get some more materials... and when I am done I will post the photos up here ya! But the only bad thing is! it is an expensive hobby. I know I shouldnt be spending but this is something that I know will keep me busy and happy! So I should save! Guess I will have to work part time even when school start. Less-ing my dad financial burden would be good. Hope this economy will become better soon

On top of that, last Saturday after my work I went to my granddad's place and chat with him and all. He look abit more happy! and I feel happy too! I know... chances of him getting like completely well is not possible but I hope that he will at least be happy.

I hate u!

2009-05-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

I hate u, Mr Mexican flu...

Ur arrival ruin every one's travelling plan.

U worsen the economy which was already bad enough.

U made everyone wear mask and to be screened and quarantined.

U caused schools to be closed.

U took away lives and thousands of poor piggies were killed all because of u.

U took away my chance to experience living in USA.

U took away my chance to visit my uncle in USA.

U took away my chance to visit Disneyland in LA.

U took away my chance of eat a different flavor of Ben and Jerry's ice cream every night.

U took away my summer vacation.

All in all, I HATE U!!!

I am going to the states anymore

2009-05-06T00:11:00.003+08:00

Like many of u have heard about it... I am not going to the states anymore due to the mexican flu....

In my past entries u can find entries of me happily preparing for the trip... went to get the visa, got the laptop, new camera squeeze time to go for lesson..... even a ipod charger.... but now... everything is gone.... coz I am not going anymore.... =(

I am super upset and depress... but like everyone else say it is more important to stay safe. This trip meant alot to me. It was my dream to visit disneyland in states. I was denied once of going to work in disneyland durng poly now this is like a lost and found chance. I wanted it so badly, hoped for it so badly. It was a chance to get away from every unhappy things in singapore. Sound irresponsible right... given the things that are happening in my family isn't better for me to stay here. BUT I need to breathe... I want to breathe! Why rip me off this "happy thing" that I was so looking forward to? Why leave me with no choice but to decide to cancel it when I am the one who have been looking forward to it for damn long? WHY? WHY?!!! This trip was paid before my dad lost his job I thought this might just be the last time that I can go overseas. Now it is gone......... go somewhere else..... how would I bear to spend money again..........

I was right I keep loosing things.... EVERYTHING!!! EVEN THE ONE HAPPY THING I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO, WAS RIP OFF ME!!!

how many ppl can understand how much this trip meant to me.....

breathe~~~

2009-04-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

damn man! I need to breathe properly!! (my block nose add on la!!!)

It simply sucks when u are sick and u need to study for exams! U just feel damn groggy and sleepy all the time! No matter how hard u try u still feel tired! and the WORSE is!!! u have to sit for paper OUTSIDE ur faculty like when I am a biz student and I have to take sci module... for goodness sake! I am not a sci person that is why I am in biz but why force me to take a sci module... -.- I am so stressed up by Gems and breath which are not even my core module... wth... -_____________- and being sick plus the warm weather is not helping at all! JIU MING AHHH!!!

My whole of april is crazy!! it is like almost 1 test and 1 dealine every week, then it is the exams then my driving at the end of the month!!!!! I AM SUPER STRESS UP!!!! no time to breathe leh!!!

AHHHHH!!! I want to be free of all these man! and sleep for as long as I want! HUMPF!!!

when I don't pluck in my ipod

2009-04-23T00:52:00.002+08:00

when I don't pluck in my ipod is when...

I want to listen to the sound of people, traffic around me
I want feel the people around me
I want know that there are other passengers in the bus or mrt
I want to hear people's conversation
I want to hear noise made by the mrt

I love my ipod... no doubt abt it... but there are times when I need feel my own existence as well as others'...

Please don't tell him

2009-04-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

Please don't tell him that I've been meaning to miss him, Because I don't....

ways to forget ur unhappiness #1

2009-04-18T00:06:00.003+08:00

Plenty of work, no sleep, no dinner, crazy deadlines, slave drive yourself.

Out of a sudden you wont feel anything at all coz u are just wayyyy to busy to even feel anything~

when life get tough...

2009-04-14T18:38:00.003+08:00

Apart from posting up mv of songs I guess I should write a little. Things arent good over here. haiz...

Guess they are right when they say 祸不单行. Latest news is my dad lost his job. Sound simple but the impact is pretty big. No doubt I guess my family can hang in there for awhile but when the sole bread winner looses the job that feed the family it is not just the financial burden. There are alot of thing attached to it. Fear, anxiety and the one feeling the worse would be my dad. If you cant understand this, its alright. I think u will need to go through it to understand it?

My granddad fall down again two weeks ago. For now I will try to visit him very week. Can tell he is getting tired and weak. His medication increases by leap. True, things like this is not within my control but it is my granddad. How can I not feel anything. On a brighter side my granddad is using the four legged walking aid now. He refuses to use it but after the fall and talking to him he is willing to use it. At least he can walk better now.

Loosing an elderly is also not as easy as u think it is. Emotional pains aside, the 后续itself is massive and draining. It have been like 4 months since my granny left us but paper work, cleaning of her stuff are still going on and there is no one to help. Everything is left to my parents. Everything has landed on my parents since the furneral. I was upset but didnt once I dare to cry in front of my parents throughout the whole furneral coz I know they have enough on their hand I should be strong for them and not give them more stuff to be worry about. Why am I not helping? There is nth much I can do. Paperwork? I cant do it at all. Cleaning of the house? My projects and tests are massive enough.

Things just pile up, doesnt it?

The last thing I ever need is to face this alone. To not be understood, not be comfort, to loose emotional support. To be on my own. But it happened.

爱到疯癫

2009-04-08T15:22:00.002+08:00

爱到疯癫

哭的酸的无所谓

看背叛爬上你不遮掩的脸

我竟然还觉得很美

被遗弃了

2009-03-31T00:52:00.007+08:00

有被遗弃的感觉，没错我是被遗弃了。

身边一起奋斗的战友不见了。

只剩下我一个人。

PS: Little that i know, just when i thought of her song, she passed away this afternoon (6/4/09) due to breast cancer... rest in peace... but ur voice will continue to give us the comfort when we need them... =)

Earth hour

2009-03-30T15:26:00.003+08:00

On 28 March 2009, it is earth day! We are all suppose to switch off our lights for an hour to save resources. Just an hour could make a big difference if eveyone does it. Its ashame as I think no one really bothers in Singapore. If you didnt do it then SHAME ON YOU!!! You could have just did ur part for earth! The place where you stay in!

Anyway, my parents were really excited about it so they brought out all sorts of candles that we have. haha... so they started lighting up all over them and place them around my house....

Indeed, I see my house in a whole new light. haha... but I came home late so I ended up having a lonely candle light dinner~

Yup, the above is my candle light dinner~ haha

PS: Save the earth coz its a place that we all depend and live on.

ningalingaling

maybe

2011

Lazy me

three years....

一个人

that something....

life....

how can u not love this guy

dreams...

My tooth

maths of a working life

when your heart is confused...

reality....

Sweet Little Girl

Toy Story 3 is coming REAL soon!

Sherk forever after!

Sex and The City 2

growing up

ALOHA

new chapter

I love the zoo

when Liana turns 21

twins

Love Life

I fear....

send me an angel

itchy hands

disgusting people

新欢&旧爱

收留我

Little stuffs that make me smile....

Simple pleasures

screw up!

Sleeping Disorder!

The adventure!

what will happen to your heart?

Oscar Awards

- Michael GiacchinoMovie: UPOscar Winner of Music (Original Score)

I would love to be like him and believe that it is not a waste of time.

Patrick Hoodie!

Transformers look alike!

My poor foot

Ugly is the new CUTE

我愛他

Randomness #2438126

Slibings

the oldie that never die

My new idol

How was he like?

Hair cut. again

NS time!

Mcfancy

Dolce & Gabbana Jalou

Alma

My latest fav. song

latest obsession

shit do happen

Happy 2010!

What do I do -Jisun

Prom Night

Places & Memories

方大同 - 紅豆

I heart going to the cinema

not ready to make nice

organiser

bad air

埋怨

Just one click

Lost and Found

Please~~

Late nights

Song of the week - 掉了

Bandage

actually i am damn tired

I feel so ARGH!

Songs of the week!

End of first week of school!

My dream Stitch room!

Had a great Friday!

- Michael Giacchino
Movie: UP
Oscar Winner of Music (Original Score)